Interview of Deborah Slappey Pitts, Author of "I Feel Okay"

Reader Views is happy to have with us Deborahfact that Clyde wouldn't recover. I knew that as
Slappey Pitts. Deborah's writings of short stories,long as Clyde was alive, there was hope. My hope
essay, and poetry span some 35 years. Welcome!and prayer was that if it was God's will to cure
Irene: Your book "I Feel Okay" is about searchingClyde, he would, and that's why we kept looking
for a cure a disease that not many people havefor someone to help Clyde, beginning in Columbus,
heard of. Please tell us about the disease.Georgia and ending in Rochester, Minnesota. And
Deborah: Primary amyloidosis (AL) is a rarethanks be to God, we made it to The Mayo Clinic,
disease of the immune system that affectsClyde's place of hope.
roughly eight people of a million annually. TheClyde and the family didn't dwell on the negative;
disease is not cancer, but the effects on thewe accentuated the positive and we took Clyde's
major organs of the body can be just as deadlyillness one day at a time, traveling around the
as cancer. Amyloidosis is an abnormal protein thatcountry to embrace a cure for the disease. Our
is deposited into any of the body's tissues ortrust and faith was focused on God to see us
organs by way of the bloodstream. The diseasethrough the storm. And he did. We made it to
results when enough amyloid protein accumulatesThe Mayo Clinic.
in the tissues or organs in the body to cause theIrene: It must have been a huge decision to
tissue or organ to malfunction.make, to take the time to travel around the
The accumulated amyloid protein causes thecountry. Tell us more about the process that you
progressive malfunction of the affected organ.took on.
The heart, kidneys, nervous system, stomach,Deborah: Well, at first, we didn't know that we
and liver are most often affected. In Clyde's case,would be traveling. After the prognosis at the local
the accumulated amyloid protein caused his hearthospital, things just didn't appear too well for
to malfunction, so he blacked out.Clyde. I knew that I needed to do something. I
It is interesting to note that primary amyloidosisjust didn't feel that enough was being done;
(AL) has some characteristics of a blood cellespecially when we had so little information about
disorder and occasionally coexists with multiplethe disease. So I looked up the disease in my
myeloma. Multiple myeloma is a cancer of theencyclopedia and while Clyde was in the hospitals,
plasma cells in the bone marrow. At first, theI visited several medical libraries to learn more
doctors originally thought that Clyde had multipleinformation about the disease.
myeloma.It really didn't take much thought to decide to
Irene: You took a huge mission to find moretravel. Clyde and I knew that we had a race
information from a medical community thatagainst time. Based upon the physician's prognosis,
wasn't able to communicate with you regardingClyde didn't have but a year or so to live because
your husband's disease primary amyloidosis. Tell usof the aggressive nature of the primary amyloid
what inspired you to write a book of yourdisease. So, as we compiled information and
experience.learned of different hospitals, we decided to
Deborah: From the very beginning, after Clyde'spursue whatever lead that we had to find
death, I wanted to tell his story so others wouldsomeone to help him.
be educated about the devastating effects ofIt was a desperation move I know that, but we
primary amyloidosis (AL), but I didn't have theknew we had no choice but to pursue every
strength to talk about our family's tragedy. Theopportunity to find someone who would be able
best that I could do then was to create ato help Clyde. And the most ironic thing: we did
website in 1996 about primary amyloidosis and Ifind someone to help Clyde with the disease, but
hoped others would read about Clyde's story andthe wait was too much for his weakened body.
primary amyloidosis, from a personal perspective.He died within two weeks of receiving a
It took me nine years to finally tell Clyde's storylife-saving heart transplant at The Mayo Clinic.
in I Feel Okay because I wanted my sons (ClydeIrene: Your husband was in coma for almost a
Daryl and Alex Keith) to know what happenedweek before he passed away. Tell us what you
and to leave them a legacy of their father.were able to do for yourself during this time,
I also wrote the book because I had a strongknowing that his time here was ending.
desire to educate the public about the devastatingDeborah: I sat by Clyde's side and I prayed and
effects of the disease so others would learnread scripture many days. I was determined that
about the disease and to avoid another tragedy.I would be close to Clyde. I asked God to give
I'm thankful to say that Clyde's story has helpedme strength through my tears of pain and
other people who are currently diagnosed withsadness, but I kept praying, even until the end of
primary amyloidosis (AL).Clyde's life. I talked to our children about Clyde's
Irene: It doesn't seem that you had much supportstate and I told them that we were in the place
from the medical community at large. Have youof hope. I also told them that if it was God's will
lost faith in it?to see Clyde through, then He would. And if it
Deborah: I would had hoped for more supportwas not His will to do so, then He wouldn't.
during Clyde's initial diagnosis of the disease, andWe all continued as a family to pray for Clyde. At
during the early years of living without Clyde, IClyde's bedside, I still knew that it was all in God's
was very disappointed with some of the doctorshands. The night before he passed out for the
who treated him. But I must say that the supportfinal time, Clyde told me he felt okay. That's why
and understanding that we received at The MayoI titled the book, I Feel Okay.
Clinic was absolute treasure! I won't ever forgetClyde's story is so precious to me. I watched his
the love and generosity that was transparent infaith strengthen to its highest degree, and I know
the eyes of Clyde's physicians and nurses asit was well with his soul as he closed his eyes in
caregivers.sleep. I won't ever forget that moment in the
And, no, I haven't lost my faith in the medicalhospital room. And much of me remained in that
community. I have a tremendous respect for thehospital room as I said goodbye to my
men and women who work in the health carecompanion, my Innisfree, my life.
profession on a daily basis. Now, I'm moreIrene: Once Clyde was gone, you had your own
cognizant of taking "charge" of my health care bygrief to go through. Would you please share with
asking questions of the health care professionalsour audience what steps you took in your grieving
about alternative solutions to the suggestiveprocess.
mode of treatment. I believe in accessingDeborah: I felt I needed to write the sequel to I
websites such as WebMD as a source ofFeel Okay, so I decided to talk about my grieving
information. This has been very helpful to me andprocess in my next book. It should come out
my family.sometime in late 2006 or early 2007. While Clyde
Irene: I understand that primary amyloidosis canwas alive, I was living on the hope that God would
be managed with medications. How muchsave him, if it was His will to do so. After Clyde
manageability is there with meds?passed, I began to concentrate on our children
Deborah: Currently, there is no cure for primaryand myself. During Clyde's illness, I hadn't thought
amyloidosis (AL). But, primary amyloidosis (AL)about me much. My main concern was to find
can be managed with medicines. The abnormalsomeone to help him. Once he was gone, I
amyloid protein that builds in the bone marrowconcentrated on my children, hoping to help them
can be slowed or even stopped, if it is diagnosedcome to terms with the loss of their father. I put
correctly and in time to stop the massive build upmyself last.
of protein fibrils.I struggled with the pain. I felt so alone without
Currently, doctors are treating patients withClyde. I prayed to God for strength and comfort
primary amyloidosis (AL) with a regimen ofand I cried myself to sleep many nights, even
chemotherapy therapies to include melphalan anddays. In my new book, I talk about my lonely
colchicine to respond to the abnormal plasma cells.road of pain and agony of losing my best friend
Additionally, physicians will also consider boneto death. And as I have done in I Feel Okay, I
marrow transplantation to introduce healthy cellshope that other people will be encouraged by
into the patient. Bone marrow transplantationreading my story about grief and suffering.
involves using high-dose chemotherapy andIrene: Now with hindsight more evident, is there
transfusion of previously collected immature oranything you think you should have done
new blood cells (stem cells) to replace thedifferently?
diseased or damaged marrow. These cells mayDeborah: After living with the death of Clyde for
be harvested from the patient's or from a donor.some 11 years now, I don't think there is much
There are success stories in the treatment ofthat I could have changed. Clyde was able to
primary amyloidosis. I know of a person who hasreceive care from the best physicians in the world
survived more than 18 years with the disease.at The Mayo Clinic. I did learn that other hospitals
Again, the key is to be diagnosed in time to slowhad amyloid research programs, such as Boston
or stop the massive build-up of the protein fibrilsMedical and Indiana University. But again I know
in the body.that Clyde was surrounded by the best physicians
Irene: You mention being diagnosed early. Whatin the business.
are some of the signs that point toward primaryI just would have loved to have found more
amyloidosis?information about the amyloid disease earlier in his
Deborah: If diagnosed early, primary amyloidosisdiagnosis. Clyde was diagnosed with the amyloid
(AL) can be slowed and sometimes even stoppeddisease in December 1994. I didn't find the
in its production. I was very heart broken when Iinformation from NORD (National Organization of
first learned this fact. I believe that things wouldRare Disorders) until late January 1995. I believe
have turned out differently if Clyde would havethat Clyde's outcome would have been different if
been diagnosed in time.we had known about The Mayo Clinic in
Symptoms of primary amyloidosis (AL) areDecember 1994.
pretty much consistent with other diseases. WhenIrene: It took quite some time before you were
considering the diagnosis, a physician should studyable to put your story into writing. What was the
the symptoms of primary amyloidosis (AL) intipping point for you that gave you the ability to
totality, not individually. During my extensivego forward with telling your story?
research, I discovered the following symptomsDeborah: My desire was to tell Clyde's story in
for the disease: Swelling of the ankles and legs,1995, but as I mentioned earlier, I didn't have the
general weakness of the extremities, weight loss,strength to write a book, but I wrote "Primary
shortness of breath, numbness or tingling in theAmyloidosis, A Personal Perspective," in 1996. I
hands or feet (This symptom can be associatedeven wrote a letter to Oprah Winfrey hoping that
with carpel tunnel syndrome.), diarrhea, severeshe would feature the rare disease during one of
fatigue, enlarged tongue, feeling of fullness afterher talk show episodes. But I never heard from
eating smaller amounts of food than usual, andher, and this really broke my heart. I told Clyde's
finally, dizziness upon standing.story through the article on the internet to include
It should be noted that amyloidosis can bewebsite addresses of research hospitals and
diagnosed only by positive identification using aagencies about the disease.
special Congo Red stain on a specimen of theIn late 2003, I decided that I needed to put one
amyloid fibrils. The normal diagnostic preparationsfoot in front of the other and to finally tell Clyde's
in a laboratory will not yield a correct diagnosis ofstory to the world. I asked myself: how can I get
the amyloid disease.people to listen to me about the devastating
Irene: The disease is incurable. Is there researcheffects of this disease. And the answer that
going on right now for a cure?surfaced was to write Clyde's story in I Feel
Deborah: Yes, as I mentioned earlier, there is noOkay. Through a shower of tears, I finished
cure for the disease, but medicines and therapieswriting the first draft of I Feel Okay in March
are available to slow or stop the progression of2004, and published it in September 2005.
the build-up of the amyloid proteins in the body.Irene: You have a "bottom line" message in your
Currently, The Mayo Clinic and Boston Medicalbook. Would you expand a little on it.
Hospitals are the leading hospitals in research ofDeborah: It took me a while to tell Clyde story in
the amyloid diseases. Throughout the last 10I Feel Okay. But I knew that I needed to record
years, these two hospitals and others havehis story to tell others about his life and the
continued research for new medications anddeadly disease that caused his death at only 43
therapies to combat primary amyloidosis (AL) andyears young. I want others to learn from Clyde's
other amyloid diseases.story and his fight with primary amyloidosis (AL). I
Irene: You attribute a lot of your strength andwant others to never accept "no" for answer. I
courage to your faith in God. Please tell yourwant people to educate themselves about the
reading audience how you personally were able todisease, whether it's amyloidosis or perhaps
surrender your will to God and strive for keepinganother disease, and to never give up.
the journey in His hands.Clyde and I could have given up and stayed in our
Deborah: God has guided the Slappey familyColumbus, Georgia home to let him die, but we
through many ordeals. And when we were faceddidn't. Clyde came out swinging, swinging for life,
with this very rare disease, a disease that weand I am so very proud of him. He never gave
didn't know how to spell or pronounce at first, Iup. He fought primary amyloidosis until the very
naturally turned to our Heavenly Father to guideend. It's my prayer that others in similar situations
us through this heavy storm in our lives. Nothingwill never give up. Seek counsel, but keep fighting
can be added or subtracted from God's word. Hefor which you believe.
says in Proverbs 3:5-6, to trust in His word andIrene: Thank you for giving us insight on primary
not to rely on our own understanding, and toamyloidosis, a disease that most of us have
acknowledge Him to direct our paths. And we did.never heard of. Is there anything else that you
Clyde and I knew that this disease was biggerwould like your readers to know about you or
than both of us; we had to rely on God'syour book?
unchanging hands to help us through this awfulDeborah: Primary amyloidosis (AL) is a disease
storm in our lives. God is all knowing and all seeing,that can be slowed and or stopped if it's
and we were willing to surrender all to himdiagnosed in time. It's critical that the information
because we had nothing within ourselves tois made available to people around the world.
change the reality that Clyde was suffering withPrimary amyloidosis (AL) doesn't discriminate. The
this deadly disease. I also knew that if it wasdisease affects people of all ethic origins, colors,
God's will to cure Clyde, he would be cured. I hadnationalities, and creeds. As I said earlier, I wrote
complete trust in God and I surrendered to HisMs. Oprah Winfrey in 1996 and poured my heart
will.out to her. I waited to hear from her, but I never
Irene: Sometimes it is hard to trust and believe indid. I had hoped her celebrity status and
something greater than ourselves. What processassistance would help me to raise the awareness
did you go through to surrender your will to God?about the rare, deadly amyloid disease.
Deborah: I'm a member of the Church of Christ,I didn't perceive that people would embrace I Feel
and I try with the best of my abilities to do whatOkay as many have. I had only planned to write
is right in God sight. I fall short, but I do try hard. Ithe facts about primary amyloidosis (AL) and then
learned a long time ago that there are someI would turn off my computer, and move on to
things I cannot change, no matter what I do. Iother things. But somewhere in my writing of
knew that this disease was much bigger thanClyde's story, I surmised that the story was
Clyde and much bigger than me. I knew that Imuch bigger than I was, even much bigger than
couldn't change the situation that was laid outClyde. So, over the past few months I have
before the Slappey family, so Clyde and I just didbegun to speak to various groups - bible classes,
what we knew: we prayed. And we prayed andbook talks at work and colleges, and appear on
prayed; asking God to give us the strength tonumerous TV shows to talk about primary
deal with our family situation.amyloidosis (AL). Clyde's story has grown much
There were many times when my faith wasbigger than me and it's being passionately
shaken during Clyde's ordeal, but God alwaysreceived. For this, I'm very thankful.
strengthen me to keep on moving and holding onMy mission now is to truly educate the world
to His unchanging Hand. And he did. I knew thatabout the devastating effects of the disease. I'm
God was carrying me in those dark days whennow reaching out to our local, state, and even
the physician would walk into the room andnational public figures, hoping that they will also
explain Clyde's prognosis. Many times, I wanted toembrace and bring into the public arena the
run away and hide, but I kept on praying becausedevastating effects of the primary amyloidosis
I knew that if it was God's will to deliver Clydedisease.
from this nightmare, He would. I knew that GodMy hope and prayer is that others will read
was in control and nothing would be added orClyde's story, our personal family tragedy, and will
taken away, unless He allowed it.pass the information along to others. This, I feel,
Sad and unfortunate things happened to all peopleis the one way to ensure that Clyde's story in I
and on November 12, 1994 (the onset of Clyde'sFeel Okay reaches epic proportion to people
blackouts), it happened to the Slappey family. Iaround the world.
don't want anyone to ever have to experienceIrene: Thank you so much for sharing your story.
the pain and suffering that we did with theIs there anything else that you would like our
amyloid disease, and this is why I'm so passionatereading audience to know about your or your
and dedicated to educating the public about thebook?
devastating effects of this disease.Deborah: Thank you so very much for reading I
Irene: It was evident to you and your family thatFeel Okay. I am deeply humbled and grateful for
your husband would not recover from thisyour reading this review and Clyde's story, and
disease. What process that you go through tofor telling others about the primary amyloidosis
accept this fact?(AL) disease. God bless you all.
Deborah: On the contrary, we didn't accept the