Interview With Deborah Slappey Pitts, Author of "Shadow Living - Paintings of Grief"

Deborah Slappey Pitts is the author of "Bookingnewspaper, radio, and at book events I talk about
Matters" and the award winning "I Feel Okay." Shehow "Shadow Living" steps away from the crowd
is a native of Americus, Georgia, and today sheto become a "close-up" and personal dialogue
travels the country as an inspirational speaker.between a suffering widow who has lost her
Pitts is a member of the Church of Christ and isloving husband to death. People feel my pain, at
affiliated with the Christian Writer's Institute, PMA,least that's what they've told me in my reviews
the Independent Publishers Association, and SPANand face-to-face conversations.
(Small Publishers Association of North America).One particular reviewer said that she felt as
Deborah has two sons, Clyde Daryl and Alexthough she were in the room with me as I
Keith, and resides in Columbus, Georgia, with herscreamed out in pain and agony-wanting
husband, Marshall Pitts.desperately to see my husband again. "Shadow
Tyler: Thank you for joining me today, Deborah.Living" makes the grieving process real. It's in your
I'm glad to have the opportunity to talk to youface. The reader feels what I feel. I found that
about your new book on the important topic ofthe other books were lacking the personal touch.
grief. To begin, will you tell us about your personalAnd I have reviewed many. "Shadow Living" is
grief experience and why you decided to writemore than words-it's about living and feeling and
this book?hurting and screaming, and finally the spirit being
Deborah: I certainly will. I hadn't planned on writingslowly calmed by my husband's voice and even
my story about my first year dealing with theby listening to comforting words by our Creator. I
pains of grief, but something inside of me wasbelieve that's why "Shadow Living...Paintings of
saying "you need to tell the whole story-yourGrief" stands out among the rest of grief books.
intimate account of grief so you can help othersThis is the difference.
along the way." That's why I decided to go aheadTyler: Deborah, of the books about grief I've
and write "Shadow Living." Other folks who hadread, many of them include activities for a person
read "I Feel Okay" urged me to tell my story, andto do to overcome their grief? Were there any
just as I had helped millions by providingtypes of activities you found helpful, and do you
information about the deadly amyloidosis disease,include any in "Shadow Living"?
I could perhaps, help others by providingDeborah: I found several activities to be helpful
information about grief and grieving through myand I share them with my readers in a flyer that
personal story.I created entitled, "Thoughts on Grieving." For
Tyler: Since "Shadow Living" is a type of sequel toexample, one of the things that I found very
"I Feel Okay" will you tell us a little about thathelpful was to rearrange my bedroom. Someone
book? Does the reader need to read "I Feelhad told me to try this and I just shrugged it off
Okay" before reading "Shadow Living"?for a time, but when I did it, I felt better-more
Deborah: I've been told that "I Feel Okay" is aindependent and with a renewed commitment
love story as Clyde and I traveled across thethat I could work through my grief with God's
United States hoping to find someone who wouldhelp. I also suggest to grievers to do something
help him find a cure to the deadly disease. We didspecial for themselves, such as going shopping
find a physician and a hospital-the Mayo Clinic andand buying something special just for them. Of
they did everything that they could do to savecourse, you have to gauge your budget with this
Clyde, but he died two weeks prior to receiving aone, but it's a good stress reliever.
life-saving heart transplant. No, the reader doesn'tI also discussed in my book about writing your
have to read "I Feel Okay" first-they can readthoughts in a journal. I've included this tip on my
"Shadow Living," and perhaps, if they want morelist of "Thoughts on Grieving." I chose to write my
specific details about Clyde and our journey, theyhusband a poem for our wedding anniversary and
can go back and read "I Feel Okay."I drove to the cemetery and read it to him. This
Tyler: Your husband died of primary amyloidosis.was a tremendous release of emotions for me as
Would you tell us a bit about what primaryI told Clyde how I felt about our wedding
amyloidosis is? Did that type of death make hisanniversary and his physical absence. I also
loss more difficult for you?suggest to grievers to eat good, nutritious meals;
Deborah: Primary amyloidosis is a disease of theeven take multivitamins and minerals if you are
immune system that affects eight in a millionable. And without a doubt, I suggest to the
people annually. As I told Irene while interviewinggriever to seek out a physician, especially if you
with her for "I Feel Okay," primary amyloidosisbegin to develop health issues.
forms in the bone marrow and is caused by theFinally, I suggest to grievers to reach out and help
abnormal accumulation of protein fibrils in organothers who are in need as they journey though
and body tissues. The proteins are smalltheir stages of grief. I've listed some of my
fragments of antibody molecules that arethoughts on grieving and there are several others
normally present in the body, giving neededthat I believe will be very helpful.
protection against infectious agents and bacteria inTyler: Deborah, I have heard grief therapists talk
the body. However, in primary amyloidosis aabout how grief relates to all losses in our lives,
defect occurs in the immune system wherenot just death. Do you think your book would help
excessive amounts of antibody molecules arepeople undergoing losses such as divorces,
produced and deposited in the organs and tissues.financial losses, or job losses?
As the molecules continue to enlarge in theDeborah: Yes, "Shadow Living" is touching souls
organs or body tissues, they begin to interferearound the U.S. and perhaps globally now since its
with normal body functions causing kidney failure,release in September 2007. I had a reviewer
loss of sensation, heart failure, and even death.state that "Shadow Living" is not only an excellent
This is what happened to Clyde. Amyloidosissource of information and comfort to those who
affects both men and women of every ethnichave lost a loved one, but also to others who are
origin, but the majority of the cases have beengoing through a divorce or other terrible
diagnosed in men.experience in their lives. Believe me, if I could learn
Tyler: Did you find being a widow at ageto live again after my husband's death others can
forty-one extremely difficult? Do you think itlearn to go on after a divorce or any financial loss.
would have been easier if your husband had livedYou still have your health, and if you are a
into old age?religious person, you still have your loving Father
Deborah: I believe that becoming a widow at anyand Jesus Christ. And that's a beautiful thing. It's
age is extremely difficult, but perhaps even morepriceless!
so at a younger age. Rather would it have beenTyler: Tell us a little bit about your inspirational
easier for Clyde to struggle with the disease intospeaking on grief and amyloidosis. Did you find it
old age-is a question I often ponder. I can onlydifficult to share your story in such a personal and
speculate that Clyde would have hated to bepublic way?
confined by a disease of this caliber-one that heDeborah: When I'm invited to an event whether
didn't know at first how even to pronounce orface-to-face or via teleconference my goal is to
spell.tell my story of loss and survival and then to
Physicians know much more about the amyloidwalk them through the stages of the grieving
diseases now 12 years later. The disease can beprocess. Through my own experiences others
managed, but it is extremely volatile. Newlearn that they too can move on to experience a
medicines are being formulated to help combatbeautiful life again. It might not be exactly what
the debilitating effects of the disease, butyou would have wanted it to be (without your
researchers still have a long way to go with thisloved one) but life is still beautiful and we honor
disease. I still receive emails from across theour loved ones by learning to live again and to
globe as patients and caregivers do their veryreach for the stars in our hearts and appreciate
best to stay ahead of the amyloidosis nuances,the sun's warming rays against our skin.
but at best, it's still a challenging ordeal.Through talking about my experiences with
Tyler: Deborah, in "Shadow Living," you talkedothers, I have learned to heal and to appreciate
about how grief can also affect a person's health.my experiences in knowing that God knows best,
Will you tell us about your own experience withbeyond my pitiful comprehension. I've learned to
health issues?heal by helping others, and so I encourage my
Deborah: Researchers are on the forefront theseaudience and readers to reach out and help
days as they learn more about the stressingsomeone else in need. In the end, that's why
effects of grief. You hear all the time about olderwe're here-to love and to help each other.
couples being married for fifty years-one dies andTyler: Do you feel people's understanding of grief
within a year or so the other spouse succumbshas changed in recent years because of all the
to death as well. Grief definitely has a tremendousbooks and attention to grief. Has the grieving
impact on a person's health.process changed or do you see it as changing?
During my first three years of grieving, I sufferedDeborah: I believe that discussions about grief and
from tremendous headaches, stomach pains, andgrieving are finally coming out of the closet. Most
even chest pains. I visited my cardiologist onpeople prefer not to talk about their pain;
several occasions, thinking I was experiencing ahowever, I chose to discuss my personal bout
heart attack. I learned later that during thewith grief because I felt my experience would
grieving process you manifest some of thehelp people in the same situation or any other
identical pains of your loved one and you thinkcrises in their lives. My personal writing about
that you're going to die as well. My heart throbbedgrieving was two fold-to help me better
in pain, but it was grievous pain-the pain of losingunderstand my grieving process and to share my
my husband to death.thoughts in an attempt to help others.
Tyler: I understand the book also gives an updateWith individual and group therapies more readily
on amyloidosis. Is the disease better understoodavailable in recent years, many people are
now? Is there anything special you would tellbeginning to reach out for a helping hand and
people dealing with losing a loved one to thisthat's a good thing. Recently, I participated in an
disease to help them through the grief process?online book talk and spoke about grief and
Deborah: Yes, the researchers at Mayo Clinic ingrieving quite extensively. Many discussed openly
Rochester, MN and Boston Medical Hospital,their losses and it was very inspirational to hear
Boston are continuing to be on the forefront withso many people finally beginning to talk about their
learning more about the disease and exposing itgrief after many years. I'm thankful that I have
to the world. Now twelve years later, numerousplayed some part in opening this dialogue. It needs
research hospitals are currently doing research onto stay open. Grief is out of the closet.
the menacing disease. Some thirty-five differentTyler: Deborah, what does your future hold for
types of amyloidosis have been identified andyou? Do you have plans to write any more books
that's a great thing.or are there other ways you want to express
I receive emails from Australia, the Unitedyour message of overcoming grief?
Kingdom, and France. The communication aboutDeborah: If you would have told me that I would
amyloidoisis has become global. Even severalbe the author of two books, describing my
episodes of the hit series "House" are talkingfamily's pain and agony of death and learning to
about amyloidosis. So, the word is definitelylive again some twelve years ago, I would have
spreading about amyloidosis and that makes mesaid that you were dreaming. But the reality is
smile. And I know Clyde would have beensober. I am learning every day to live and
gloriously happy about that.appreciate the beauty of God's green earth and
Tyler: Deborah, please tell us a little bit about theHis blessings for all. Once I had written "I Feel
stages of the grieving process described in theOkay," I thought that my job was done, but I
book?was grossly mistaken. I am now writing my third
Deborah: I pondered about the best way to tellbook-a nonfiction work of short stories about
my story. Would I journalize it or would it be bestgrowing up with my brothers and sisters in the
for me to talk about it as I experienced thelate 50s and 60s. I am having a ball writing the
stages of the grieving process. I chose to do thestories and recounting the special moments that
latter, describing how I felt as I learned to live asshaped our values, our hopes, our lives. It will be
a widow during my first year.released in late 2008.
There are many experts-psychologists andAlso, I continue to speak with groups about grief
psychiatrists who talk about grieving-the variousand grieving and share my personal story and
stages of grieving and how a person should bethoughts on grieving-providing tips on the griever's
feeling. I chose to describe my experience usingjourney. I speak one-on-one with people and try
seven stages of the grieving process and Ito make myself available when they just want to
describe a stage or stages within each chapter.talk and need someone to listen. I also participate
The seven stages that I identified are shock,in panel discussions and have plans in 2008 to be
denial, anger, bargaining, fear, depression, anda participant at a hospice event. I also speak
acknowledgment. It should be noted thatabout grief and grieving on radio and television.
everyone will grieve differently and perhaps won'tThis is a continuous process and I want to do
follow all of the seven stages that I havewhatever I can to help others on their journey to
identified in "Shadow Living...Paintings of Grief," butfind solace once again in their lives.
these seven are typical. It doesn't necessarilyTyler: Thank you for joining me today, Deborah.
mean that a person will follow each phase inBefore we go, will you let our readers know your
succession either.website address and what additional information
I went back and forth several times with anger,they may find there?
denial, and even depression before I finally arrivedDeborah: My website address is dslappeypitts.com,
at acknowledging the fact that my husband wasmy email is , and myspace page is
gone from this earth and wasn't coming back. Imyspace.com\deborahslappeypitts. I definitely
had to learn to appreciate the beautifulwould welcome your comments and thoughts. My
twenty-one years that we had together as manbooks can be purchased at all booksellers.
and wife and father of our children. I'm thankful toI appreciate your wonderful support as I continue
God for giving me a beautiful jewel of His to lovemy journey to help others in distress and to
and to cherish forever.make a positive difference in a person's life. Please
Tyler: Many other books have previously beenenjoy the holidays with family and friends and
written about the grieving process. What makeslearn to live again. Thank you so much and grace
"Shadow Living" stand out from other books?and peace to all of you.
Deborah: When I'm talking about my book to